Hi guys ,
This is obviously not a blogpost I’m gonna be proud of,
especially since now I’m just extremely pissed and need an outlet to vent out
all my anger… So obviously I won’t write nice things and I know, I shouldn’t do
this stuff on the internet but I really really cannot take it man. I could
simply just type this and delete it and be done with it, but I guess I’ll just
post it up, so if I look back on myself I’d know what a horrid monster I
actually am inside.
First of all, I really feel like slapping the people who say
that I’m a nice person man, I’m pretty sure I am the meanest asshole around
just that I don’t show it. Of course, we cannot just judge according to looks.
Just as looks can be altered with makeup, our ‘personality’ can be a drafted
fake cover to hide our true self. Just like me. I am a monster, and I will not
deny it. I acknowledge it but I do not see the need to exterminate this monster
in me kinda thing you know?
Anyway, I’m just extremely annoyed JUST simply by hearing
this dude’s voice. Yes, that’s how annoyed I am. The worst part is that he’s a
stubborn as fuck kinda dude who always wants things his way. Surprisingly, I am
typing this blog post in front of him LEL. But really though that’s how annoyed
I am. Truth to be told, I would love to simply leave and just wander around
myself, because I value alone time a lot more than time with people like him
LEL. I don’t know if this dude even reads my blog but if he do, GET A FUCKING
HINT. Don’t disturb me man I want nothing to do with you to be honest but of
course, that is impossible considering the fact that this guy is actually quite
close to me in a sense that I have to be around him most of the time. Oh the
agony. Oh the horror.
Hopefully this is the last few semesters that I see him but
noooo I just had to have some ties with him that makes me have to see him every
now and then CREYYYYYYYY.
CREYYYYYYYYYYYYYY I CANNOT LAH I REALLY WANT TO QUIT I WANT
TO QUIT I WANT TO QUIT.
I just don’t want anything to do with him anymore.
I want Ryan nowwwwwwww. But I can’t constantly be so selfish
and keep relying on him… I don’t wanna stress Sammy as well. Ugh I just cannot.
I REALLY CANNOT. His voice just irks me to the core and the worse part now is
that although I am wearing headphones blasting my music to the max, I can still
hear him. I only hear him and not the others. Well technically I do but then
like they are muffled noises.
I swear I think he thinks that everything revolves around
him sia. INCLUDING using US, HUMANS, as tools. Like hey, you don’t control me,
you don’t control the others. DO NOT ever think you’re superior okay. Why is
everybody your pawn? Huh? Because the world is your chess and we are your
pieces right? Hmm , that’s extremely amazing because hey, we are all playing
each other in the end. Funny thing is that we humans, do what we please. But
some things that we do if others actually do the same, we just think its
fucking annoying you know that kind of thing. Yea, I’m pretty sure I’ve been
the jerk quite a few times over but still, I hate it when people be jerks. Only
I CAN be a jerk and I WILL, if you really push me to the limit. Of course, that
won’t be the best thing to see…..
Oh yea, I hate how when I took out my earphones he’s blasting
shit from his phone and expecting everyone else too deal with his shit ewww.
Don’t be so selfish leh. KNS I JUST HATE YOU. HATE HATE HATE.
Fuck you.
Oh and, if the shoe fits, feel free to assume it’s you okay.
Im sorry if this blog post is so angsty but I really need to
let this all go man. Anyway, look, I’m not the perfect gentle kind girl you all
think I am. Take a look at this, look clearly. I am not what you think I am.
Whether you accept me or not idc lah. Just leave me be. The picture below literally describes me to the bone.
(This was typed on Thursday!)
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Aaaaand that was what happened a few days ago. Looking at
this again, I’m not ashamed of this neither am I gonna take this down but I do
feel that maybe, if I didn’t type when I’m furious, this post would turn out
differently, maybe like a reflection of sorts. But then again I really don’t regret
typing that because if not for this post, I think I would’ve started crying or
something already. Yes, I was THAT pissed off.
A few other things happened
subsequently that made me even more aggravated than I was at that point of time
but yea, I’ve ranted my fair share out, so I ain’t gonna repeat that again.
Thank you Burrito peeps and Ryan for hearing me out. I swear If not for you
guys I’d end up doing something I may regret (Like punching the wall or something
idk vandalism is a crime crey I ain’t a criminal)
OH OH AND IF YOU REALISED I ACTUALLY REVAMPED MY BLOG IT LOOKS SO PRETTY NOW IM SO PROUD OF MYSELF OKAY OKAY IM SO HAPPY. Like it was the only productive thing I did today LEL. It's a really slow paced Saturday compared to my previous weekends and stuff but while I'm grateful to this change of pace, I also got extremely bored because I didn't have much to do today. Well, I could've went for the event at Suntec today but Lazy ah. Don't feel like moving my ass out of my home it's so comfy.
Also, if you realised, I actually bothered to think of a title for today's post AHAHA. Of course, this is not going to be a one time thing. I've decided to name every post because it gives you, my readers an overview of what my blog post is about, so you'll decide if you wanna read the post or not. Neat huh?
So, first week of school wasn't all rainbows and flowers but at least, I survived! With all these negativity above, I'll try to balance it with some fuwa happiness. Well, throughout these whole week, the highlights are .. Wednesday (Which is Deepavali holidays) and Friday.
My Wednesday was made up of movies, movies and more movies with Dad. I swear, we need more of these nua sessions man. Well, I shouldn't be complaining especially since it's only the first day of school but.. well.. haha. I can't help it!
Friday was a really slow day for me as well, with BCS makeup lecture and that really turned me off. It was sooooo boring. While it's certainly more relevant than RHT, that doesn't mean it's gonna be a fun subject as well. Seeing how I did not print my notes, I was so lost in the lecture I started drawing lel. I know, I shouldn't have, but i was bored! Anyway, I had inspiration to write a few more Haikus ( I promise these are not as dark) and I think I'm proud of myself for that :)
OH AND FRIDAYYY. WAS SO EXCITED FOR FRIDAY BECAUSE I HAD A DATE WITH RYAN, SHOPPINGGGGGGG. I never thought that shopping with guys for guy's clothes would be so fun omg. We laughed, we smiled, we drank (Bubbletea lel not alcohol). Too bad I didn't snap some pictures of him in the shirt I bought him I swear he look so hot damn. Though I felt really awkward waiting for him outside when he was changing crey (My phone was in his bag so I couldn't possibly entertain myself with it). It was all worth it though. Hope you like the shirt Ryan <3 An extremely belated birthday gift HAHAHA. Of course there are funny moments where the curtain was not closed properly and i just barged in LEL. HAHAHA well that was epic. It's a pity we didn't get the converse shirt too man... that shirt empathsized his body structure (which is really good btw).
OH OH while we were shopping, we saw Jonas and Yu Heng ahahaha dear lawd Jonas looked so adorable with that cap and he's like 'don't judge' HAHAHA Oh I'm not judging sweetie you look so cuuuuuute omg.
Halloween Tattoos are out! They're so adorable I just HAD to get them! Though a tad expensive but still it's so worth it! Will post pics on Insta and FB once we put them on :) Visit Lolitattoos on Instagram! That's the shop I think. The tatts are sooooo cute.
Speaking of tattoos, I recently pasted on a "Low Battery" tattoo and I was so in love with it! I bought those from Poppysparadise on Carousell (Check them out!) and they were oh so friendly! I'd probably purchase more from them too :) Unfortunately, the tattoo faded really quickly and although this is only the 3rd day , almost half the tatt is gone already :( Maybe it was because I scratched it? Idk.... But really though I loved that design *^*
*PS I'm not paid to advertise those shops above LEL But really they're cool.
OMG I forgot what I wanted to type!!! But I guess I'll stop here for now the post is long enough AHAHAHA. Now for the Haikus and short stuff.
Yellowed leaf
Billowing to the ground
Eternal Summer
Cows moo
Duck poo
On you
Just like a lazy moving river, thoughts translate into words at snail pace.
When it does, it confuses, it comes out in broken sentences, broken words. Though confusing to most, the mayhem of thoughts melding into words are utterly,completely understood by ourselves. When the right one comes along, these whispery lullaby of incoherent thoughts would be understood, by the heart. Listen. Feel it. Embrace it.
That is it for today's post! Thank you for staying till the end :) Here's a random selfie !
With love,
Meredith
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